You become what you think….I have ah-ha points often.
I noticed years ago that I would hold tension in my lower back which would lead to headaches. My back tension worked its way up my back over the years to my shoulders to my neck and then out of my body. I don’t usually ever hold tension in my body or at least not muscle related anymore. I think work stress created this for me usually. I learned how to kill it and it’s awesome as I remember how bad it felt and how it added to my stress.
Recently, my stress is different and deeper rooted and my recently health challenges have been a huge wake up call and a huge blessing. I know I have a lot of work to do to get the stress and illness out of my body for good. I’m trying to reduce commitments and spend more time meditating and practicing my breathing exercises. I need to eat the right things, exercise more, get massages, do more yoga, do more meditation, and get reiki monthly. Self-care is not easy, and I have been challenged with this concept this year. I’m so grateful as the habits I create soon will set me up for a healthy person year from now. I believe the lost of several loved ones has created this situation for me so I’m doing extra things such as going to a median, hypnosis, chakra readings to see what else I can do to manage how I deal with loss and how to handle it with grace and peace in the future. Journaling is helping me set my mind free and allow my self to get go of the loss and it’s helping get rid of the sadness too.
As a child, my thoughts and stress, I know my mind was making me sick. My inner critic, my mind would never shut down and it was a big problem for me trying to achieve unrealistic goals. As a young adult and mother, I started to have better self-awareness. I realized I was in a status of chronic stress from career obligations, being a single parent, and regular everyday stresses. As I started to understand my diet, my allergies, I did research and starting learning. I still wasn’t doing all the right things all those years and even in 2017 but I was learning, and I was aware. I attended week long workshops to improve my inner self and I worked hard every day to see the world differently. Yamas and Niyamas was life changing and arrived at the perfect time in my life. Living the Ayurveda lifestyle, understanding my dosha, removing toxins from my home, eating organic isn’t nearly enough for me. I need to learn more and do more. I’m on my own mission to learn more and more. I seek knowledge always. I’m almost addicted to learning at this point in my life. Constant improvement of self, kindness of self, self-acceptance, self-care…I’m focused and much more aware. I’m a work in process, my thoughts are much more loving towards myself and I feel positive most of the time…gratitude and feeling blessed. I love the book by the way. Thank you KK